Scrolling through my twitter feed deleting things I've 'tweeted' or 'retweeted' because I've decided that I don't want people to know that's how I truly feel, because I feel dumb that I got hardly any favorites, or because I feel like maybe I 'tweet' too much. Then I realized that I need to quit being ashamed of being me. I shouldn't feel like suppressing or censoring my emotions & thoughts because people may judge me, think different of me, or not agree with me. I have great things to say and I have feelings that need to be shared. Why on earth should I be apart of anything that causes me to hestiate when I express myself? It breaks my heart that anyone may ever feel like they can't open up because the ignorance of others, yet here I am victim of something I would demand others to fight.
My blog is definitely a place where I am myself, probably because nobody reads it therefore nobody is judging me. Isn't that sad? I feel confident to express myself to nobody. Clearly, something must change. I can't change how others perceive me, but I can change how I perceive myself. I've decided to love myself and even better, I've decided to love my Heavenly Father so much that there is no way I cannot love myself because what He desires is now what I desire. And I know He desires for me to value myself, to feel happy in my own mind, and be nothing but confident as I experience this world that He so graciously allowed me to be apart of.
I want to view myself the way my Heavenly Father & Jesus Christ view me. I want to learn to see my individual worth.