Poem: Robyn Lee Eliason Howell

From day one she loved to score

She'd only stop to help her dad with a chore 

She'd play with her sister or the neighbor boys 

But playing sports was only one of her many joys

To her paying rather than earning was just plain crazy

So she forgot college but not 'cause she was lazy

She put all she had into starting a business

And her ratio of success was more to less

Four daughters soon came along

& she coached and taught them right from wrong

She loved those girls from the start

Although she wasn't great at expressing it from her heart

A disease was found but she didn't care

She knew how much she could bare

The cancer was growing so she decided to attack

But in the end God wanted her back

Her sickness didn't define her worth

It was the things she accomplished from beyond her day of birth

In case I ever go astray

I need not worry because I have an angel watching over me today  

-Malori Ann Howell

Poem: Eternal Love

We met long ago

Each of us went wherever the wind happened to blow

We were lost and looking for a flame

Sadly we took anything that came

We then found each other once again 

Our mutual love we could not explain

Not a moment went by without thinking of each other

But we were human so we still had struggles

People's judgements influenced us

So we tried to adjust

Soon we realized their opinions didn't matter 

And this brought us back together 

He gave me a ring 

Which was something I wanted more than anything

We would finally start our forever

Our love somehow got even better

We have grown old

His passing couldn't be controlled

I am alone but love is not lacking

Because love like ours is everlasting

-Malori Ann Howell

Poem: Career Dreams

You're told you can achieve whatever you yearn

Yet you're kept naive to the fiscal ways

You follow your dream without a concern

Just assuming writing would bring you pay

Soon you realize literature is tough

Seeing others receive more praise than you

Rivalry? The opus was hard enough

How can your passions possibly come true?

Money's influence makes your heart turn blind

Dreams become a fantasy of the past

Choosing to bear a more doable grind

Life is plush, yet you craze a task recast

Regrets form for choosing cash over goals

But how could you succeed with all those tolls?

-Malori Ann Howell

Poem: Melancholy

The feeling consumes you rather slowly

And when you realize your hope defuses

Attempting to hide this grief haltingly

Will only make worse your broken hearts blues

You believe you can conquer this alone

Pushing yourself away from loving peers

But slowly your energy is far blown

And your focus turns to hiding your tears

Soon you become detached from the world

All you crave is an eternal stupor

People notice your sorrow unfurled

Yet don't see your suicidal future

Suddenly you realize you once loved life

So you let someone help put down your knife

 

-Malori Ann Howell

The First Christmas

• It wasn't the same but we did our best• 

What would Christmas Eve be without footsies? 

But more importantly, what would Christmas Eve be without family?

Christmas Tradition: Try to somehow get everyone to wake-up and get in line from youngest to oldest while my mom films the room filled with presents! 

Since Kayli and my mom could not be here, we pulled up a picture of them on the laptop and carried on to try to keep things normal.

Josh filmed in place of my mom and gave us the "okay" when we could finally run in to see our presents!

We look way excited to "finally" be running into the Christmas room. This is just an act, it wasn't our first time being in there all morning! Usually we weren't allowed to step foot in the "Christmas room" until my mom gave us the que, but since she wasn't here we hung out in the Christmas room before even lining up. What a bunch of cheaters right? 

When I was a child it seemed that Christmas was the same every year & I loved it that way! But now that I'm older I realized that no matter what we do it's going to be different every year. We can't help that we have changed as life insists we do. We're growing people with different priorites and different lives. Which is probably a good thing, as hard as it is to admit. Is it not the whole purpose of our being? Anyways, Christmas was still so much fun even in it's all sorts of differentness. 

The Ideal Body

It's so true, although society is leaning towards the pressure of having muscle more than skinny these days, I still believe it is unhealthy to have it determine your whole worth like so many woman do. We are more than things to be looked at. I know that is is soooo important to be healthy, but I also know that this body I am in is such a temporary thing and I'm not going to be taking it with me when I go. Therefore, I need to adjust my focus onto the things I can take. I need to work on creating a better Malori.  

I believe that being healthy is so important, but having a treat isn't so bad. It's all about having balance in your life. Don't stress too much about being healthy but don't let yourself go.

 -Learning to love myself.-

| it. is. all. about. your. mindset. |

To be a Kid Again

Started the day working in the School Garden for Community Service Day!

Then we decided to go on an adventure.. Sun roof open ✔

Laffy Taffys brought us back to the younger years 🍬

But this took us way back... Got ourselves water guns to attack the other kids still working and hid our identity with McDonalds bags. 🙈 

Ended the day with some Snow Cones(: